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sunshine blizzard sunshine By: via qwertymonk

small blizzard after family therapy By: via qwertymonk

one thousand armed avalokiteshvara By: via qwertymonk

No one and nothing can free you but your own understanding. — Ajahn Chah By: via qwertymonk

big deal but nothing happens By: via qwertymonk

i let wife know and sangha member know i will most likely end samaya vow with my teacher and leave the community with love for all involved By: via qwertymonk

message from sangha member wanting to meet and talk about everything which hard for us and our schedule By: via qwertymonk

busy day with ecfe and volunteering at 7’s school my dad took my computer away and offered one of his at reduced price but i’m not sure that i want one yet By: via qwertymonk

making soup By: via qwertymonk

an immensely strong one By: via qwertymonk

control is such a fucking illusion By: via qwertymonk

and yet things are offered as well By: via qwertymonk

already nothing is the same and the pattern of things being stripped away By: via qwertymonk

zenith and nadir will be effected By: via qwertymonk

uranus opposing my natal uranus among other things and all offer the uranian tote through my chiron mercury and sun By: via qwertymonk

on the way to some kind of break loose By: via qwertymonk

this phase of life i’m in By: via qwertymonk

how many times will i post this same thing By: via qwertymonk

strong urge to create make music wrote dance and also to sit still meditate allow the elements to bless us and perfume consciousness with earth and heaven but there is no space seemingly and i can’t keep up with demand By: via qwertymonk

wind picking up more snow more blizzard i guess By: via qwertymonk

lunch and then dance party while eating cookie dough together as i sip sour cold brew coffee By: via qwertymonk

it’s our day By: via qwertymonk

we pick up snacks for ecfe tomorrow By: via qwertymonk

3 gets a lollipop at the liquor store By: via qwertymonk

the snow piles up and up By: via qwertymonk

shoveling mixed with getting everyone ready grinding grinding everything everyone needing every second of my attention grinding me down By: via qwertymonk

we prepare to get ready to get ready to go out and accomplish one something By: via qwertymonk

making changes to the meditation room to reflect recent realizations while 3 watches a children’s show By: via qwertymonk

or something like that By: via qwertymonk

always could have been worse but it’s always bad enough By: via qwertymonk

tired yes By: via qwertymonk

i was up with him until well after midnight and then tried to get my own sleep By: via qwertymonk

3 fell asleep while i was shoveling and wife didn’t wake him up for a few hours By: via qwertymonk

no one helped By: via qwertymonk

shoveled the driveway twice By: via qwertymonk

either put a new one in for two hundred or put that money toward a different computer By: via qwertymonk

video board failing By: via qwertymonk

crashed again today By: via qwertymonk

computer crashed and came back yesterday By: via qwertymonk

not big into tv myself but things look good on it and the boys are excited By: via qwertymonk

nothing fancy but a huge upgrade from what we had By: via qwertymonk

wife bought us a new tv with our projected tax refund By: via qwertymonk

probably an all day affair By: via qwertymonk

more snow By: via qwertymonk

more coffee By: via qwertymonk

another friend over for 7 By: via qwertymonk

wife getting taxes done and other stuff By: via qwertymonk

revelations through grieving By: via qwertymonk

eleven below By: via qwertymonk

of course another good cry while practicing By: via qwertymonk

heading upstairs to the tiny shrine room for whatever By: via qwertymonk

get a movie going for the boys and wife By: via qwertymonk

three hard cries so far today By: via qwertymonk

it’s going around By: via qwertymonk

the friend is a tricky little guy trying to manipulate every little scenario on top of the turmoil By: via qwertymonk

at least for now By: via qwertymonk

video game saves the day By: via qwertymonk

we have a friend over for 7 and it’s a long awkward path to find something for everyone to do By: via qwertymonk

the war between the boys rages on and i’m not sure what sanity would feel like anymore By: via qwertymonk

we’ll see By: via qwertymonk

we’re at negative two By: via qwertymonk

weather app says a high of zero today By: via qwertymonk

i finished up the shoveling in spite of their ongoing war with each other then other bombs dropping all over the place By: via qwertymonk

boys have been awful lately more and more and today is no exception By: via qwertymonk

sunshine By: via qwertymonk

eleven below By: via qwertymonk

twenty something below windchill By: via qwertymonk

ten below By: via qwertymonk

no school too cold By: via qwertymonk

five in the morning the school robot called By: via qwertymonk