wife and i get into an argument and then i finally get toddler to sleep my arms shaking from carrying him my back and neck tight and aching and then we get to fight it out and go to bed mad at each other even though they say you shouldn't do that but when we get up in the morning we get to figure out who's going to mow the lawn By: via poetry falcon
working with the urge and the desire to have a break or more breaks from the boys on the one hand i am so lucky to have all this time with them i will never get it back but on the other hand i'm with them so much it can be detrimental to my sanity and ability to have an objective point of view so i want a break and then i see that attachement i let it float by and return to whatever needs to happen next or their smile or their fighting or a diaper change or a game we're playing and doing music and art with them is one of my favorite sanity sanitizers but they aren't always into that jam and i don't blame my wife because she can barely get in the door and change and eat and play a little while i finally get a chance to clean everything that's been driving me crazy as well as the the dishes from the just cooked and consumed meal and then it's bedtime just like that which probably take the most precise parenting skills of any i've acquired and yet by that time
it's not bad reading books to toddler who wants and wants them more and more and the same one over and over is fine with me it's the all day and all night thing that eventually wears me down and i succumb to the 'pour me' or whatever but i think it's ok to be human and just let the tears flow when they can and let the anger be there but be clear about what it is and where responsibility lies to communicate without over emotion so that clarity can glide us toward a common goal from our common anguish or something like that By: via poetry falcon
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