poetry falcon's Post

working with the urge and the desire to have a break or more breaks from the boys on the one hand i am so lucky to have all this time with them i will never get it back but on the other hand i'm with them so much it can be detrimental to my sanity and ability to have an objective point of view so i want a break and then i see that attachement i let it float by and return to whatever needs to happen next or their smile or their fighting or a diaper change or a game we're playing and doing music and art with them is one of my favorite sanity sanitizers but they aren't always into that jam and i don't blame my wife because she can barely get in the door and change and eat and play a little while i finally get a chance to clean everything that's been driving me crazy as well as the the dishes from the just cooked and consumed meal and then it's bedtime just like that which probably take the most precise parenting skills of any i've acquired and yet by that time of day i'm exhausted and sometimes incoherent and i will admit to having a beer or some gin to keep the chi flowing and it works it's like pretending you're at a party and you need a little social lubricant i am extremely introverted maybe it's not obvious so that little elixir is like my ice breaker so i don't clam up on them but we also just dance to crazy music sometimes or have a battle royale pillow brawl on the big bed with tickle bombs until we all can't breathe
By: via poetry falcon