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bought caulk without having to ask anyone if they know anything about caulk By: via poetry falcon

going going all day all day By: via poetry falcon

neck got worse and sleep was erratic time to get everyone out the door and see my old old friend the chiropractor i am his most loyal customer By: via poetry falcon

and so it is with one hour of sleep and burning back and neck tight and crooked in the heavy night the toddler needs me and walk and walk and sing and sing and finally collapse on the sofa with him on top of me still awake but he doesn't struggle and seems to doze off so i clench him and try to rise up but almost topple us both over i am so tired and i walk him down the loud creaky hardwood hallway and lay him down but he almost wakes up again and as we lay there he wakes up several times but is reassured that he can feel me next to him until finally after i've fallen asleep and been awakened a several times i think i can escape and i do for now By: via poetry falcon

behavior issues with 6 after school i know he works really hard to hold it together all day and then is exhausted from it and can't control himself in fundamental ways once he's home with us and it's hard on everyone because i really miss him when he's gone but i miss him even more when he's not there right in front of me but we do our best to meet each other in whatever way we can By: via poetry falcon

wild turkeys roam the front lawn two yards down from where we wait and approach us By: via poetry falcon

my mind and body are tired in the humid afternoon as we await the arrival of the mustard bus with our first grader in it eager to hear how it went for him and rejoice along with or comfort through the pain By: via poetry falcon

toddler woke up and we performed many household functions together mostly related to cleaning and organizing it is quite different having 6 at school and i had forgotten just how much so but i know there will be days where toddler is sick or upset all day for whatever reason and those are long days as well By: via poetry falcon

then i did a certain meditation practice sitting in the grass also in the sun with wife myself and 6 particularly in mind By: via poetry falcon

toddler fell asleep on the way home so i had a chance to eat a tofu thai peanut wrap and read more of infinite jest while sitting in the sun with my shirt off allowing the breeze to massage my skin and the bird sounds to keep me present By: via poetry falcon

before we went to the pet store i had texted my wife an apology for upsetting her so and explained my understanding of what she's looking for and not looking for and offered how i thought i was being misunderstood she replied an hour or so later also apologizing and admitting that some things are triggering her that she wants to discuss with me but also work on in her own time By: via poetry falcon

toddler and i watered the plants and went to petco to get some cat litter and food for our orange cat as well as watch the fish and birds and rodents do their thing By: via poetry falcon

got 6 off to his first day of first grade and another blow up with the wife afterward feel like i ate a shit sandwich i'm sure her version is equal as i am no saint and prone to misunderstanding By: via poetry falcon

in other news: you can make a decision based on myriad variables that you could never explain to anyone and humans will judge that decision based on their assumptions from wholly different point of view and the whole thing is so oddly disconnected and yet pressed together tightly in a long humid room By: via poetry falcon

i go back inside and work on her computer but it's hopeless so i fire up mine and begin the long download which i'll hopefully be able to transfer to the external drive in some fashion that she can find all this stuff there are more pictures and videos on her phone than i thought possible By: via poetry falcon

so i need to pee before i tackle this impossible job but 6 has locked himself in the bathroom for his required shower so i walk out to a private little spot by the compost and let it flow but i notice a spider freaking out back and forth and realize i'm peeing on the extremity of it's web and it thinks it has caught the jackpot By: via poetry falcon

wife's phone is too full and she wants to be able to take pictures of first day of first grade in the morning but she's had issues trying to get it unloaded onto her computer which is my old computer which out of date in many ways By: via poetry falcon

we head home in a funk except for toddler who is chipper as hell By: via poetry falcon

6 can't manage at the park he can't find anyone to fire up his nerf gun obsession as he drags himself around the sandy lot populated with apparatus and i'm feeling similar but i'm responsible for keeping toddler alive which hasn't been as easy since he became more of a daredevil on the equipment By: via poetry falcon

i read a few pages today even though i'm all behind on everything but i need to rest my legs sometimes or suffer the consequences anyway it was good to dip back in to that world of language and invented futures By: via poetry falcon

my new friend was a student of dfw [david foster wallace] in his freshman year pretty much by accident and before the big fame wave crashed into him he has good stories and describes what a nice guy he was which all reignites my desire to read infinite jest which i read two thirds of before becoming a stay at home dad and setting it aside By: via poetry falcon

the boys and i are so lethargic it's difficult to get to the park but we finally make it there only to still feel lethargic By: via poetry falcon

had a back spasm picking up the toddler this morning so i set him down and iced it as my chiropractor always suggests so far it's not getting worse but it is sore and reminding me of posture and how hard it is to carry these humans around By: via poetry falcon

our friends had to leave early this morning to make it to an appointment and we're all tired and the boys want to go to the park but can't get themselves ready as we have first day of school tomorrow and need to get groceries i put a call in to my dad to see if he can watch the boys while i stock up because i am not taking them both grocery shopping ever again By: via poetry falcon

more sazeracs and more accolades yes they are good as i sip red wine for some physical reason and our chicago friends are off early in the morning and we will miss them especially 6 will miss is his brother 41 who played the most minecraft with him ever and had the best conversations and built the best structures By: via poetry falcon

we get back and our chicago friends want sazeracs and i'm touched they like them so much so i make them and serve them to exclamations that warm my heart even deeper i'm a good boy like a puppy dog By: via poetry falcon

of course then i was all sweaty in his classroom meeting his teacher and figuring out how to label all his supplies with his chinese name but i'm used to looking underdressed and possibly being stinky so just like new york By: via poetry falcon

most walked back to the school but i figured i was warmed up and i haven't been able to run for almost a week so ran the whole way and it still took a while By: via poetry falcon

meet your teacher night for first graders getting ready is terrible and frustrating with every kind of refusal even though we know he's excited we get parked far away in what looks like a no parking street but everyone is parking there anyway so we do too and make the long walk up to the school but when we get inside someone is telling everyone that they're ticketing on that street so a bunch of us haul ass running toward our cars like it's life and death and get them moved even further away to a little lot on the other side of town basically By: via poetry falcon

toddler needs needs needs me today and 6 is good until our friends are up and around then the behavior explodes with him unable to control his excitement but somehow we manage to get lunch into the boys and i get toddler asleep and onto the bed where i pass out next to him for about half an hour i think then i come out and see them hanging with 6 and make some green tea and listen to the sadness that is human beaurocracy and jealousy no matter how good the intentions and i write write write some piles of words that i can edit or not later By: via poetry falcon

got boys to bed and stayed up too late with our chicago friends drinking just a little too much so we're all tired but good because it was fun and rare to enjoy time in that way By: via poetry falcon

art museum with no nap toddler and hyper 6 could have been a lot worse By: via poetry falcon

one thinks you're fake another a genius that's what they think sometimes it's the same person on a different day yet there is always that dichotomy so why listen to it except you must be on to something By: via poetry falcon

redundant screaming dawn again 5 am toddler 6 kicking me throughout the night nice to have guests anyway By: via poetry falcon

our friends arrive and 6 launches into playing minecraft on his ipod begging us to play in the same world as him so we all download the game and join him in his world and he is in absolute heaven albeit totally obsessed and we've probably created a monster By: via poetry falcon

expecting friends from chicago walking out to the compost bin a bee in the heavy drizzle By: via poetry falcon

i make a good sazerac By: via poetry falcon

then i make a sazerac each for wife and i By: via poetry falcon

they have a couple craft cocktails and bring back chicken tenders and burgers for the boys a club sandwich for me and we sit outside in the chilled evening watching the puppy chase 6 By: via poetry falcon

after nap and haircut sister in law stops by with two of three cousins and carlos the black lab puppy to drop off stuff they have for us hand me downs and such the boys and pup play out back a bit before firing up the minecraft and i send the sisters out to get a drink together while enjoy the buzz of excitement 6 has for his cousins and toddler pushes around his fake lawnmower By: via poetry falcon

boys and i play guns in the backyard and then 6 and i do 3 laps around the perimeter him winning the race of course before we send mommy off to get her hair cut and get toddler down for nap By: via poetry falcon

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hours later i've had too much coffee and feel mild depression that i have to stop drinking it and i notice a large bruise on my left arm i have no idea how it got there i don't remember and i am not surprised whatsoever By: via poetry falcon

in the midst of the murky suffering is the witness to astonishing brilliance of life growing of its own accord with only examples and guidance to assist its unfolding By: via poetry falcon

grateful for this opportunity to be here for the boys always and it's still a motherfucker to answer the toddlers cry at ten to six with a full bladder and all of my own needs sitting there next to us as he cries wanting mommy but she just spent a long time with him and would like some more rest and he doesn't care so i use every creative deflection tool i can invent to get his mind and heart and desire into something else which eventually works and then falls apart and everything he wants to do is very loud noisy antithesis of sleep so it's a lot to take on first thing in the morning and only 29 more hours to go and this coffee could be transmogrified into pages of inky words but this will have to do for now and i can't get to my goddamn guitar to play for my band mates oh well one thing at a time By: via poetry falcon

later in our backyard after lunch homework toddler nap and all that we battle and i am accidentally smashed in the balls with a baseball bat which sends body into automatic fight mode luckily i didn't hit anyone again this time the way the body reacts without my control is scary but seems like it has a purpose anyway i walk it off and walk some more man that hurts By: via poetry falcon

only one other first grader family showed for the play date at the park 6s preschool teachers and many old friends and parents i knew were there for their own meet up and we all witnessed a cicada transmogrification By: via poetry falcon

origin you devour my right arm endgame perfectly numbered condiments traveling potato-like and strained through erotic storms on outer donkey kindness kings of tabasco silence white shining thunderbolt spherical mirror mantra syrup explosive sweet freezer razors down to a core of quelling the five hole stone howling spirits boiled and wordy with their spatial paper density drinking chess dioxide from the full dang galaxy konk in a miraculous perigee of daylight eating ghouls unaware under stars loving climate calligraphy crescendo ink is the purity power system for twelve meals of vodka on one knee By: via poetry falcon

transition is usually the hard part for 6 or for anyone By: via poetry falcon

quiet morning until 6 gets home and then we have several flavors of chaos preparing for a play date at a nearby park with members of the incoming first grade class at his chinese immersion school By: via poetry falcon

just a little gin hammers me so i back off must be the stress sleep deprivation lack of food i don't know but then toddler wants mommy for bed but can't settle so he wants me so i go pee and pick him up we walk in a circle on the front driveway me singing row your boat it's already after ten pm By: via poetry falcon

we talk somewhat reasonably and it seems to help we'll see then i set up a gifted bluray player but it's not as good as our old one so i reconnect that one while toddler climbs onto the ottoman and is playing with the lamp light switch singing and dancing and acting extremely smart i pour a gin and give him a bath By: via poetry falcon

my dad picks up 6 then toddler wakes up from nap and i take off my shirt and change the oil on the lawnmower with his help By: via poetry falcon

i get toddler down for nap and fall asleep next to 6 building worlds in minecraft and talking By: via poetry falcon

there is no telling what will happen By: via poetry falcon

my dad is coming in an hour to take 6 to his place to watch movies and spend the night which i originally set up so the wife and i could get the toddler to bed and have a nice evening to ourselves at least that was the hope however now i feel it may be best used for me to sit down and listen to what she has to say without reacting because that seems to help her somehow which in turn helps me By: via poetry falcon

and then at the park he practiced walking in them which was a totally foreign feeling for him and slowly got more used to them but he still seems a little unsure how to deal with this new phenomenon By: via poetry falcon

i was blown away By: via poetry falcon

we've never been able to get the toddler to wear a pair of shoes last winter he had on fleece booties under his full body snowsuit that looks like a little bear so he was fine but i've tried and tried and then just gave up but still the worry about winter coming so i've been explaining shoes to him whenever i get the chance and today he asked to put them on By: via poetry falcon

the boys were so good yesterday just some small behavior stuff at the park with 6 but he also showed great care and thoughtfulness throughout the day and that has led into the same for today i am so proud of our little boys and everything they're learning and witnessing their talents erupt through their fresh being By: via poetry falcon

having said that it is my heart wish that we are able to rejoin the same team and move forward together By: via poetry falcon

it has to be acknowledged that things die without us being able to control it By: via poetry falcon

we've been through several of these the past year every two or three weeks or s and i'm proud of us for getting through them in spite of the exhaustion and every other circumstance plotting agianst us but who knows maybe this is it By: via poetry falcon

today has been no better with another small tiff before work but mostly hurting behind cold walls of misunderstanding and confusion By: via poetry falcon

on top of it all he woke up early and of course being the martyr i am i took him and let her sleep By: via poetry falcon

we were up three or four times in the night with toddler one time i walked around carrying him and singing for over an hour only to have him wake up twenty minutes later By: via poetry falcon

this happens between humans By: via poetry falcon

we then did our best to get the boys to bed By: via poetry falcon

she got home from work and ate the indian food i had prepared then watched the boys while mowed the lawn By: via poetry falcon

we spent the day texting back and forth in between everything else we have to worry about and it just seemed to get worse and worse By: via poetry falcon

but instead it escalated more and more until i was receiving texts that baffled my mind and heart i knew she was feeling very hurt by the level of attack coming at me the contradictions hypocritions and unworkable analogies By: via poetry falcon

usually we would text back forth and resolve the issue maybe i would apologize and she would say she's over it or vice versa or there could be more back and forth before some understanding is reached By: via poetry falcon

yesterday morning i received instructions from a cranky wife and lashed out from own pain snag and we had a little fight before she went to work By: via poetry falcon

the flame By: via poetry falcon

the steam has only built and the kettle is whistling but no one can turn off the flame By: via poetry falcon

of course it won't do that there is no escape it's all here as it is whether i like it or not By: via poetry falcon

they get their time playing but i have to take it away due to roughness since we don't have money to fix these things and they want to hear me play but in actuality won't let me at which time i become extremely frustrated again and as i'm putting everything away pissed off they are fighting with each other and this day can just go fuck itself By: via poetry falcon

try to play guitar again and have to give it up hand it over to the boys they can't let me play until they have their time with the thing i may never play again and have to quit the band but we'll wait and see By: via poetry falcon

they cheer up and we listen to some of the tracks chopper sent By: via poetry falcon

i give them chocolate and have some as well By: via poetry falcon

and they don't let up one needs something the other spills everywhere i clean it up and there's a freak out about something else then i freak out but again someone needs something else now i'm kissing a boo boo again on and on feeling sorry for myself and stretched too thin will i ever get to play my goddamn guitar and if i do will i have enough energy to enjoy it these are the thoughts of an eclipse day parenting poet pussy crashing into the high wall of insanity yet sanely observing the jolly good show By: via poetry falcon

get toddler down and check the sky but the clouds are too thick so get a couple things done and check again i can see the eclipse for a few seconds between heavy clouds and then it is completely obscured again so go back inside and try to get some stuff down but get incredibly tired i lay down and close my eyes just as toddler cries through the monitor way ahead of schedule By: via poetry falcon

we eat lunch and i get the boys and cat inside the house so they don't look up at the sun by accident hoping to get toddler down for nap in time so 6 and i can put on the glasses and check it out but i might miss the whole thing and watch it online later i guess that's parenting and i'm not too worried about it i can feel it as much as anything By: via poetry falcon

so that's what we did today we went outside and pretended to tighten screws and bang on things until he felt satisfied with our work then we went inside and toddler was content so 6 started in with his arguing and complaining back and forth like this i guess no one is getting what they want By: via poetry falcon

6 moths or so ago our gate was broken from the cold winter harshness so toddler and i went to home depot and got the part we needed to fix it when we got home we grabbed some screwdrivers and repaired the gate together and to this day it's one of his favorite things to do he loves to fix stuff so if he's distraught sometimes i can say DO WE NEED TO GO FIX THE GATE and he will nod yes agreeing to go fix the gate By: via poetry falcon

i hold toddler for a while as he cries into my eardrum the music of the aching universe and then remember a trick that i can use sometimes but not all the time or it loses its power By: via poetry falcon

excited to dig and play some music i look for my opening but instead have a horrendous arguing match between 6 and myself trying to get through his homework up and down all over the place we finally accomplish the minimum requirement and he gets some ipod time so i run upstairs with toddler in tow and plug in the tiny practice amp and get out my shred machine to warm up a little bit toddler smashes his finger in a drawer just i'm playing the beginning of the first track through the stereo to jam along with so i kiss his finger which usually makes it all better but every time i try to play my guitar he screams and screams at me to stop so i play anyway for a while and then begin to put away the guitar but he screams even louder that i'm putting it away i ask him if he wants to play he screams NO snot and tears running down his face no matter what i try to do he is inconsolable there is no where to hide no way to make it ok By: via poetry falcon

we're starting a band tracks coming down the pipe sound good i haven't played in months haven't been in a band in twenty years give or take By: via poetry falcon

can't say i enjoy these excursions but they are an interesting way to get out of the house and shake up the routine and feel grateful when we're all done with it and i suppose it's something to write about By: via poetry falcon

on the way home both boys pass out in the car and we arrive at our home and get everything inside but 6 is so tired he stumbles into the breezeway and tries to sleep on the messy couch but i pick him up and carry him while pulling off his shoes thinking i'll lay him on his bed but he wiggles free and yells at me not to watch him pee as my dad arrives with food and 6 finishes peeing and digs in while toddler falls back to sleep in his bed as i pour a duval and bow to the powerful pulchritude gliding over my palette like a majestic falcon By: via poetry falcon

more coffee and then wife heads to a special event with a woman and clothing or something sister in law and i take the kids to the apartment complex pool i decide to skip toddlers nap based on several factors and he enjoys the pool and hot tub as does 6 then we go back to the apartment and have a snack while toddler begs and cries for mommy to come home and my dad is texting us asking what to bring for dinner and when as i try to balance crying toddler with questions from my dad and wondering when wife will be done By: via poetry falcon

sister in law makes me an egg sandwich wife has coffee ready i don't remember the last time anyone cooked for me i start to cry and turn the corner to a belly laugh By: via poetry falcon

i get another hour or so and wake to the sounds of puppy and children playing the coffee air compelling By: via poetry falcon

6 goes back to bed auntie falls asleep in chair beneath a blanket i crawl back into my nest and there is a short period of sleep before 6 is back up we turn on cartoons and then toddler and wife are awake wife sends me to the other room for more sleep By: via poetry falcon

the honking has turned to shouting and 6 is cold so he climbs into my warm covers in the little magic couch while we watch puppy dump a huge boom boom by the tv and then another by the ottoman and another next to that i get paper towels and the garbage can 6 gets his auntie and we clean it all up By: via poetry falcon

a few hours until the next call of the kraken more toddler drama both of us up but then she gets him back to bed and i lay back down too and some device is making noises as i drift in and out then the puppy is scratching and squealing for a period of time i can't make myself move but sister in law takes him out and there's honking outside the window a few minutes later she returns with the dog somewhere in there 6 has woken up and banged into me twice By: via poetry falcon

report from the front line: brutal night some children up late and later jarring me up and up again as well as bladder and other random occurrences a short doze off interrupted by wailing toddler which takes me 90 minutes and two tries to get back to sleep in their bed so i can go back to the short couch where the ache of the universe is my flesh mirror it is now 3:24am here By: via poetry falcon

with final reciprocal fragments the ones we whistle through a hose discover the massive textures beneath red defense endings at the end of spiritual sleep source the squeeze of twinkle meals doubly so coming together from chaos particles next to the minister of fruit quite possible and visible simplified into bishops of citrus death essence over the double comet cluster wand By: via poetry falcon

oldest and i are similar in that we just want to get the puppy and toddler in a good zone so we can do our important work on our computers so he puts on a funny video show and i find a truck for toddler to play with the puppy has a toy and we're all good for a little while By: via poetry falcon

we arrive and have snacks and a margarita then they head out to the raceway to see who knows what i've heard different reports ranging from race cars demolition derby and even monster trucks but the main thing is that it will be loud and toddler can't handle loud so i hang back with him sister in laws oldest hangs back to care for their new puppy with some special needs By: via poetry falcon

and 6 yells at me to drive more slowly because he has a headache and every bump hurts him until he finally yells that i need to go absolutely slow or stop or drive on the grass on the side of the freeway mommy finally asks him to close his eyes and he commands us to SHUT UP By: via poetry falcon

we alert 6 of our plans so he can get ready to get ready and he can't handle his excitement regresses to naughty freak out mode i don't blame him but it's bad and i'm trying to get all the crap ready that we need to bring to actually stay overnight which seem like half our stuff if not all baby monitors sound machines diapers wipes extra clothes swimming stuff food margarita ingredients to cheer up sister on and on hours of this and wife finally gets back with more supplies and things we need and somehow we all load into the car and take off i am dripping with sweat just like i was this morning when i ran over 5k and head feels like cement i'm so tired but we drive away cheerful with bouts of cranky By: via poetry falcon

we have lunch and i vacuum and clean while the boys play and wife relaxes then we get an invitation from her sister to go to a raceway and see demolition derby and stay overnight By: via poetry falcon

it is terribly uncomfortable and yet i feel good having a calming effect on our household that i'm not totally fucking it all up and that it is hard no matter who you are and that i've let go of a lot and learned a lot and and and and and and By: via poetry falcon

i return and wife is upset as well as 6 while toddler is happy to see me and i get the report the saga of the two hours i was away juicy with emotional details and i listen intently to someone else describe the experience i often have each day By: via poetry falcon

my time out of the house is cut short by strong lethargy and reports of chaos from home By: via poetry falcon

sent out to run errands and do whatever the bank ain't open yet so head down the street and drop of some stuff at the place for the guy to pick up later and then over to my fav coffee shop that i haven't been to in many years they only take cash and it's self owned voluntarily working their shifts and doing it the way they want the goods are half the price and twice the quality of anywhere and it is a tiny space hence the name matchbox as i sit at the small table enjoying no internet connection and buddha statue in the window next to me and write whatever tothe classical music and odd conversations between retirees and artists and musicians By: via poetry falcon

while trying to make lunch i hear 6 playing with toddler and being very nice to him showing him things and they both sound so content so i keep with my preparations and when lunch is almost i ready i go out back to let them know and find several patio tiles pulled up with gaping holes beneath where they were searching for worms because they love worms By: via poetry falcon

as a wondering wave insouciant apogee checking the blobs of impulse victims and sleep bowing at the waterfall where stopping began the axis nest nova straying ecliptic in seasons of burning emblems ineffable fury of specific silence By: via poetry falcon

birth and death of the snowblower: wife bought a brand new snowblower a few years ago with some kind of special deal when we had one child and we used it that winter but the next two winters found me shoveling instead not liking the thing at all and not really feeling like it was less work or helped my back since i still had to shovel a lot of stuff it couldn't handle so last winter we tried to sell it when there was still a good chance of lots of snow and we had several people look at it and lowball us so we gave up but this week she put it back on the craigslist because she is a craigslist grandmaster and had more lowballer but this morning a guy got off work from the airport and was looking for a snowblower for his daughter he came over right away the toddler was even awake yet and he started it and checked it out and bought it for the advertised price i helped him lift into the back of his truck and off he went and now we can use the money to scratch the surface of house repair

my dad gets a new nerf shooter for 6 and we get a toy lawnmower for toddler both boys ecstatic for something new as mercury continues backward and the eclipse is pumping up emotions insecurities projections i can feel it my bones the reactions coming from fear out of open space innocents we are behind this curtain of illusion and i just want one minute without stress to poop By: via poetry falcon

the endless barrage has worn me down i can't write about all of it and i don't feel like trying it was nice to have a night off from the toddler but tonight was back to work and as i walked circles upon the cracked concrete driveway weeds flourishing through the crevices an infinite road of everything the same lay before me the frogs singing their night chorus the maple shadows on the white garage door cast from the street lamp but mimicking a moonlit effect By: via poetry falcon

sky don't hurt where parts join ecstasy and my purpose is crunched across light to find you a pine standing way up north emanating lakes of herons in empty love and grandfather morning kissed to a bed of drowning dream rhymes about what should a shitwhow be watchin' when real beauty is going through leaks in the tough joy and manufactured irritation is a carpool to general repulsion coming true nowhere because stunts are stunts in high heels By: via poetry falcon

spectrum elegant mono-tornadic synchronous ceremonial triptych triangle goats ever thankful to themselves and the gorgons of disappointment for becoming infrangible blocks of nomenclature fondled by number storms mixing teal queen professor pawns crackling against the short roar crescendo crust anomalous to her own excoriated spinning thoughts squeezed in double binary lion crux protection commanded somewhere from dusty flutes of fuchsia snooze and freedom rising radishes splashing herself a little more each time to plank in pink heaven while simultaneous perfect puppet gums of electric wisdom suck force through clarity liquid unable to use aeons of unknown patterns appearing scientific in the minimal twinkle and colourless gulch By: via poetry falcon

details like this are what i would want to know if you were writing a channel like this therefore i offer them By: via poetry falcon

i don't leave the house often so when i do i take the opportunity to wear my watch wedding ring and wrist mala things that get in the way of changing diapers and playing rough the watch is a very nice one that my wife picked out for me and my mom bought me as a christmas gift a few years ago when i was applying for a supervisor position before we got pregnant with our second child the ring is low end functional stainless steel with a secret band of red gold you can see if you look really close and the mala is crystal with rose quartz many mantras done on it reminds me to be aware observe look directly at thoughts the mind whatever is occurring right here on this dot By: via poetry falcon

my dad takes 6 to the mall for video games rides and junk food toddler and i are heading out to pick up necessities we ran out of coffee this morning and haven't had whisky in the house for too long probably get some food too but definitely coffee the ink of the inner page By: via poetry falcon

no running this morning because i'm supposed to rest my legs after a few days and everyone seemed to have slept better but that doesn't mean anything and still uncertain how to continue from here everyone has these little conundrums plastered to the walls of their lives this is one of mine By: via poetry falcon

right now i am not in the backyard carrying a human being singing a lullaby instead i am sitting next to my goddamn wife watching a goddamn show drinking a goddamn gin eating whatever goddamn thing i can find because i am hungry from running and not sleeping and being screamed at all day until it was almost funny and i will write some stuff that needs to be written cheers By: via poetry falcon